I don’t hate you, but I hate who you have become, who you never were, what you never did. All my life I could probably sum up in a few words; stressful & disappointing. My dad walked in & out basically all my life till I worked up enough strength to let him know how I really felt. We don’t speak any more, at all. I have always had Mark (step dad). I also had both my grandparents & mom. Although I wouldn’t considered my mom a mom to me. Some people question me & wonder why I don’t consider my mom a mom. Well, I feel as she was never there for me, mentally or emotionaly; she was there physically I knew that but she never would show me she cared, I felt she just expected me to know that she did. Over time I learned to realize a lot about my mom. She is still so immature & arrogant. She has chosen her new boyfriend over me. She chose to fight with me & not speak with me for hee boyfriend because she didn’t want to listen to how I felt about everything. I wish things were different with me & her. I wish that she would just take my feelings into consideration before making long term decisions. I do want my mom to be happy; for what reason is only because she is my mom. I personally believe that if you are a mother & are trying to make a long term decision you should always always always check with your kids to see if they are okay with it & say all of them but one isn’t, you should hold it off & try & make your child feel comfortable with the situation. That is one thing my mom lacks. It bothers me that I feel I am not important enough to have a say in decisions that she is making for who I have to see her walk around with & have my little brother & sister see. The one thing that scared me since the day my baby sister & brother were born was that they were gonna have to go through the same hurt that me & my older & younger sister had to go through with our father. I don’t want them to feel the way I do, day in & day out. I just wish that my mom would wake up & realize other things going on besides her & her boyfriend.